I can't pretend anymore

I have to tell you the truth. Outside maybe I look cool and aloof but really, all I can think about is Juilliard. It consumes my every thought--especially these days when work is slow and monotonous. I'm really excited about this program more than I can express and I hope it lives up to expectations. Oh, September, I cannot wait for you to be here! Bring to me the much heralded weekly workshops and twice monthly readings! I feel like I have won the lotto.