on jealousy

Malachy wrote a post about jealousy and used me as an
example so I feel like I have to say something about
it. Maybe I don't.

http://litdept.blogspot.com/2007/02/jealousy.html

It puts me in mind of Jason's post a while back.

http://jasongrote.blogspot.com/2006/04/why-am-i-so-freakin-jealous.html

It's hard to be working in a field where there are so
few opportunities and not feel this at one time or
another. The trick is not letting it take over. But
we're all struggling with this. There is always
someone doing better. There are even people who make
a living at this I hear (not really). But yeah, It
would be nice to get a comission or two or a
two-picture deal (as a friend of mine recently got).
It would be nice to not have to work a full time job.
It would be nice to see my work produced regularly all
over the country.

And I have to admit I feel the jealousy less
frequently these days but then I'll feel that twinge
when my friend gets into something I wanted to get
into or gets the attention of someone whose attention
I want. And I have to remind myself again that we all
have our own journeys in this and that comparing my
journey to your journey doesn't make sense. We didn't
come from the same place. We're not making the same
art. Sometimes things work out and sometimes they
don't and when it comes down to it no one really knows
why.

I hope that wasn't annoying.