Friday, April 18, 2008

Last Night

Last night I read for 15 min or so from the novel that I am trying to write in fits and starts with long stops where I am interrupted by plays, a tv spec, a film script, etc. I do plan to finish one of these days. Except writing one novel is like writing 3 or 4 plays. It's hard to find the time. All of this is just to say that I really enjoyed reading my fiction in front of a crowd and that I thought it went well. I know I can write plays but the jury was still out on fiction. Last night was encouragement to go forward. Not sure when, but eventually. I also forgot how much I liked to perform. I used to act, yes but it made me anxious and it stopped being fun and so I went to writing instead. So I've been hiding behind actors. But when it comes down to it, acting is fun. Being up in front of people, feeling them facing you, responding in front of you, instead of around you. It's kind of a high. I forgot about that. Also, I'm good at reading my own stuff. I know how it's supposed to sound and I can often get near what I want it to be. I don't want to go back to acting or anything, but I hope I do get this book written and published just so that I can read in front of people. It was fucking fun.

9 comments:

mbh said...

I started writing plays after a string of rejections at auditions. I wrote to have good parts for myself then discovered I was a mediocre actor (and one of the BEST Stage Managers ever)... and kept writing plays.

Cheers,

Michael

mbh said...

Cut myself off... I have a novel that is 3/4 done... and I have been writing it for three years between plays. Some days I get in 1,000 words, some days I get in a sentence... all forward momentum is good.

Cheers,

Michael

Adam said...

yeah, i need forward momentum. i keep putting it aside completely, then i started to write a completely new novel instead and then put that aside to do tv stuff. and I have more tv stuff to do next. someday. maybe after that.

Johnna Adams said...

You should start acting at Flux Sunday some. That is pretty low-pressure. I guess Flux Sunday is going on hiatus until the Fall though. But still.

Adam said...

I don't want to kiss people though. And i don't want it to be known I'm an actor. I don't want to act, really. The whole staying stationary and reading from a page is the best.

August Schulenburg said...

Wait...we're supposed to be kissing people at FS? I think I've been doing something wrong then. Hmm. All right, this Sunday I'm definitely casting myself in a make out scene, even if I have to write one myself...

Adam said...

yeah, get on that. And I mean get ON that.

Scaredy Cat said...

I feel the same about acting, used to do it, made me anxious, didn't want to be called an actor, but damn was it fun - the little performative moments in my life remind of that. I wonder if a lot of writers were stage-o-phobes. congrats on the book in progress.

Adam said...

Thanks! I think a lot of writers don't get it right the first time so they rewrite their lives in fiction.