Apr 18, 2008
Last night I read for 15 min or so from the novel that I am trying to write in fits and starts with long stops where I am interrupted by plays, a tv spec, a film script, etc. I do plan to finish one of these days. Except writing one novel is like writing 3 or 4 plays. It's hard to find the time. All of this is just to say that I really enjoyed reading my fiction in front of a crowd and that I thought it went well. I know I can write plays but the jury was still out on fiction. Last night was encouragement to go forward. Not sure when, but eventually. I also forgot how much I liked to perform. I used to act, yes but it made me anxious and it stopped being fun and so I went to writing instead. So I've been hiding behind actors. But when it comes down to it, acting is fun. Being up in front of people, feeling them facing you, responding in front of you, instead of around you. It's kind of a high. I forgot about that. Also, I'm good at reading my own stuff. I know how it's supposed to sound and I can often get near what I want it to be. I don't want to go back to acting or anything, but I hope I do get this book written and published just so that I can read in front of people. It was fucking fun.